One man down

I've been sick for a couple of days now and thought it was just the flu. Today, when I went to see a doctor, I got antibiotics for an ear infection plus I will have to stay at home for three more days. Ugh.

I hate being sick. It's a waste of time and I'm already bouncing off the walls. Three more days of this?? Are you kidding me? There are a million things that I should be working on at the moment but because of the fever, I can't think clearly :D I mean, I have thoughts, yes, but they're disorganized and I can't do any rational thinking. I'm only able to stress out and panic. And sleep, blow my nose and read blogs.

If I was feeling normal, I would just sit down and figure out a plan and be just fine. But I'm not. So I keep calling to too many people, bother them with stupid questions and get even more frustrated because no one else can make these decisions for me and I don't have the answers. What is stressing me out is the fall. And my plans that I happen to have zero at the moment. Ok ok, I have alternative plans but none of them seems ideal for me. I keep changing my mind every hour, which is not smart, because I should have a clear plan by the end of this week.

Originally, I was supposed to write my master's thesis in the spring 2013. That was a good plan and I organized my schedule around that. About a week ago I heard about an opportunity to write the thesis already in the fall and got all excited. Now, after finding out some facts about the very tight schedule for the fall, I keep thinking whether I should stick with my original plan and write the thesis in the spring. Bahh. I'm not sure what to do.

The thing is, I might be doing the work for the same company that I worked for in the summer. We just have to have come to a mutual understanding about the subject and the objectives of the project, and it's not gonna happen just like that. The schedule for the fall is very tight and we need more time to get something out of this. I would have to hand in a plan for the thesis by the end of this week and we were supposed to have preliminary discussions with the company about the topic only in September. I want to do a good job with the thesis and it has started to seem that the spring would be a better timing for the project.

I think I need to get some more sleep and think about this when I have more energy. What I can do during my sick-leave is read articles and write a suggestion of what the research could be about and ask for comments and opinions on how to make the plan better and prepare for the project. By the end of the week I need to make up my mind. A lot of pressure on an exhausted patient.